someone that i shouldn't fall into ...

i'll write this cuz i know that no one will read this .,

i dont know exactly how and when i hv this feeling towards him, but i know it is real . maybe mulanya bila one of my best buddy told me that he trid to avoid us (both of us) . yaa time tu rasa maybe kut sbb dia layan yg lain sama je but not us . then we both made a decision to meet him and face to face ask what is his problem actually . his action make us so awkward . and end up he said that he actually does not hv any problem and seekfor forgiveness for his bad . and after that dia okay la dengan aku . but a little awkward with my best buddy (let me present her as S) . okay end here.

i dont know the real time this things happen, but after the f2f session tu dia rajin reply my insta story . mula2 dgn emoji , then start la with a word then .... seterusnya . masa tu rasa mcm " alaa biasa laa tu saja nak cari pasal" and im okay with that . i didnt even tell my best buddies bout that sbb akan menimbulkan masalah n gaduh besar . oh lupa , actually si S ni hv a crush on him . thats why i keep silent until now hoho . okay sambung, masa tu dekat lab chemistry, my lecturer so sporting like yeh kitorang boleh berkejaran dlm lab tu hahaha lol. okay time tu dah habis experiment , and we hv like 45 minutes left so sir asked us to do some exercises but my friends pandai pancing sir, so dorang pun ajak borak . and time tu one of my friend main phone kitaorg (random). and dia take her picture n uploaded it into insta story . i thought dia buat dkt member perempuan aku tu je, rupanya dia buat dkt insta laki ni jugak (they quite closed sampai jadi issue yg dorang couple but actually not) . and time tu bila tahu aku saja reply story laki ni " uyoo untunglah makwe lawaa" and that time baru dia perasan phone dia kene ceroboh . pastu dia reply "k k k" and delete that post . 

after that aku nak la buat kerja yg sir bagi, so aku pindah meja blkng cuz ada kipas sejuk la sikit . nak buat chemist kut . kebetulan meja tu sebelah meja dia n kwn dia (D)  . suddenly i got dm from him "pindah blkng nak tgok D ke" yaaa dorang kenen kan aku dgn si D euw plis la. then aku saja reply " taklah mestilah nak tgok kau" and i dont hv any intension pun nak gedik dgn dia or what . just malas nak gaduh and suprisingly he replied me "awwh malu la crush tengok" and i was like ...... what the hell this guy , and masa tu nmpak la dia sesenyum pandang screen phone . damn . aku punya bagi helah ckp org lain crush dia tapi still dia cakap the person is me . dang . time tu seram gila sbb u know S suka dia kan hmmm aku pun senyap jela .

and his replies on my stories drives me crazy gosh. one of it, me "cuaca harini sejuk tapi lagi sejuk hati saya bila nampak awak". him "awhhh thankyouu" . and me "nak tengok crush tp crush takde". him "sorry la takturun main bola tadi" . damn weh siapa je takrasa mcm dia bagi harapan kan aihhh .

ni terjadi dkt lecture hall , me "ehh sebelah ni tempat pakwe aku la" actually ckp dkt D then he reply "oh aku la tu kan" emmm ..... and one more, my friend yg ceroboh phone org tu (R)  ckp la dkt dia, "weh belanja aku tudung wehh". time tu this girl duduk sebelah aku and kitaorg betul2 belakang this two guy and he replies "taknak pokai" , "taknaklah", suddenly pusing pndng aku "daripada belanja kau baik aku belanja eyra, kan?" and senyum like goshhhhh !!!!! wehhhhhh haih . 

actually byk je benda jadi yg dia mcm tunjuk gaya mcm suka aku, tapi nak taip mmg takhabis hahahahahahahah so perasan lol . tak bukan perasan tapi thats the fact wehhh . 

paling takleh lupa masa tu kitaorg saja buat makan2 gather before exam and before habis matrik,and time tu R ajak la 2 best buddy tu (boys) pergi teman dia ambik makanan yg order and kitaorg tunggu jela. suddenly ada member sorang ni tanya mana R ? aku ckp la dorang gi ambik makanan , pastu aku mcm tau dia sebenarnya nak ikut, so aku ajaklah dia pergi tempat tu .. then terjadi satu incident ni , aku mintak tolong D pegangkan air sbb berat kut dia pegang yg ringan so aku mintak tukar lah. time gaduh tu bebudak tu boleh kenakan pulak , yg laki tu siap kata nak ambik gambar buat story aku mcm aihhhh sabar jela . anddd .... otw nak kembali ke tampat sebenar tu dorang main pikapline hahahahah dipendekkan cerita member aku (perempuan) kena friendzone hahahah lawak gila pastu gaduh2 la sikit . and time tu aku tak ingat kenapa tapi aku sampai jerit dkt laki tu " dah la kau! malas aku nak cakap dgn kau lagi!" and out of sudden dia lari ke arah aku sambil cakap "alaaaa eyraaaaaa cakaplah dengan aku......" maigod weh time tu rasa mcm eeeeee geramnyaaaa mengadanyaaaa comelnyaaaaaaaa damn. sumpah dah nak melting tapi aku masih waras hahah . pastu dia ajar ambik gambar guna dslr and banyak lagi ....... weh bila ingat balik sedih gila . u know why ? hmm sebb skrg dia dah takpernah tegur aku, lost contact . i was like hmmmm but i know he still contact with one of my buddies but aku takkisah sgt (yelatu hahahahahahah)

taktau nak cakap cemana tapi yaaaa just keep it alone. no one will know this . aku doakan kau baikbaik je, goodluck in your future and i wanna u to know that aku selalu harap yg one day kita akan jumpa and rapat in the future :')

#nowplaying// say you won't let go